IQ's

So much to say and yet nothing left to say.

Regrets, reminiscences and some more regrets. I'm not regretting my decisions. What I'm regretting is my stupidity. Extreme stupidity. I'm wishing that KASH! I would have been sensible then. I wish I would have acted more maturely.

HA!
I hate my self.
NO!
I think I hate the 8 months back Iqra.
She had created so many problems for the present Iqra.
HA!


These days I'm in a state of numbness. I'm appearing to be perfectly normal and contended but inside this normal me there is the most tensed and frusrtaed of me. Frustration to an extent that it is driving me insane. I've NO ONE to .... Again I'm postering and advertising my *. It has been ages since I've said what I want to, to someone. I'm finding no outlet whatsoever for my frustration.

I want to start all over again.

YET ....

YET I want to remain glued to the ....

WHY LIFE ACTS SO WEIRDLY ?

WHY ??

If only I can find the anwer to this WHY ...

If only ....