SOLITUDE ....

All I need right now to straighten out my problems.

I wish I can find it somewhere.

TAXATION ....

The subject I used to love once. So much that I kinda thought about adapting TAX as my professional expertise.
NOW !!!!
I loathe TAX.
Its so damn huge and so much in magnitude. I can't even manage to complete it EVER.
All my fault. I kept procrastinating that I'll start studying SOME DAY and the GD some day hasn't come yet.
Now there is so damn much of the subject I've to study and so little time left. Still I'm not studying. Basically the subject is pure route learning stuff and route learning is ONE thing I hate. Holding the book in your hand and walking and rattafying the definitions!!!!
GOD !!!!
I hate to do this. But karna yehi paray ga Miss Iqra aap ko.


WHATEVER .....

Including the above, I've some other problems too. These days I'm in a perfect dilemma. Stuck between my family and friends. The day we went to the picnic, it was SBK's birthday. I kinda done the hangout at her place with her and then later when I came to know about our picnic I refused her. I felt so damn bad then but I'd to that 'cause of the family and cousins pressure !!!!
NOW WHO CAN BELIEVE THIS ....
21st August is the DOB of two of my extremely good friends and .....
AND ....
We're going somewhere on 21st too. Some stupid water park. Sick of 'em by now !!!!
I MEAN ...
This is pure rotten luck. This time I really want to hang out with my friends. BUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BS ....
I'm so damn * rite now.
I feel like shutting (banging) my room's door and cry my heart out. I'm really *.

Besides, this happened last year too. Last year too I spent these days in pure tafreeh. I mean EVERY ONE apppearing in the AUTUMN 2005 attempt is studying like hell and look at me .... Miss IQRA SAJJAD is picnic-ing on an almost daily basis.

BS.