I keep forgetting that life is not strawberries, chocolates and caviars and fancy stuff only. It is so damn tough that .....
I also keep forgetting that there STILL DO exists a ruling factor by the name of FATE. EF AEY TEE EE. FATE.
I've never ever experienced this SOM based on pure uncertainity before. NEVER EVER. I hate confusions.

I've been fantasizing a lot lately. A LOT. I'm illusioning a lot. I'm embellishing my solitude and my thoughts. STOP IT MISS IQRA SAJJAD!!! You've already seen and bear the consequences of assuming, fantasizing and illusioning. Refer to your previous experiences and STOP doing it to yourself.
GOD! It's so damn difficult. I'm beaming all over these days. I'm smiling a lot and I'm .... yet once again ... I'm assuming so much. Assuming the impossible to be possible in future. WHY I'M DOING SO? Why I just can't learn from the mistakes I've already made in the near past !!!! I'm assuming such things which are doing nothing except driving me sugar, chocolates and nuts all over and leading me into the familiar phase of euphoric intoxication.
!!!!!
Aysa kiun ho raha hai meray sath. People learn from their mistakes and I .... I don't have the learning phenomenon in my DNA.
And yet I know how much it aches when your assumptions are proved wrong to their cores and your built-with-so-much-of-care-that-it-costs-me-my-life dreamhouse is shattered to pieces. I know how much it aches when your illusions are proved to be nothing but mere mirages in the hot, barren, scorching desert of life ...
STILL ....
Sabaq hasil karna tu seekha hi naheen hai na jee hum nay. KHUSHFEHMI .... How much I hate this word and .....
I'm nuts. I've no doubt while confessing it. I'm nuts all over. SUGAR COATED, HONEY GLAZED PURE NUTS.
GOD! Please help me.

THE RULE OF FOUR ....
The name of the book I'm devouring these days. I went to have some good sizzlers at a decent eatry and there I spotted this beloved bookstore o' mine. The temptation was too hard too resist and I kinda ignore my platter of steaming steaks since I was facing LIBERTY.
LIBERTY BOOK STORES !!!!!
I wish the LIBERTY people can let me live happily ever after in their stores !
The book is so damn engrossing. I'm through half of it. Though I was allowed to buy that ONLY if I promised to read it after the 07th of September i.e. after my exams but ....
The last thing I can do is to refrain myself from reading a book which is in so easy access of mine. I asked mom to hide the book somewhere until I'm done with the exams. She did hide that BUT I find the book.
:-)
READING BOOKS is not a hobby. Its like a passion to me. I wonder how people can survive without reading. I've come across people who claim proudly k jee hum tu kitaabein parhtay hi naheen or yeh kay kia karna hai aaj kay daur mein kitaabein parh kay!!!!!.
I mean ....
PURE IGNORANCE !!!!
Thats what it is.


And yes as for the book, it is a kinda sequel to DA VINCI CODE. No. It's not the sequel. Its a 526 pages long tale of love and arcane brutality.

A THING OF BEAUTY ... A JOY FOR EVER