My biggest problem is that I don't know what I need out of my life. It isn't even a problem. It is the height of indifference towards yourself. It is the depth of the abyss I'm in. It is the magnitude of the importance I give to my very existence. It is pure ignorance.
There is a lot I need to straighten out. May be I need some outsider's help to solve the current enigma of my life. Or maybe this enigma is not even worth giving a try. May be discussing it with will help me solve it. May be a clear cut harsh answer based on pure rotten reality to my riddle is all I need to rearrange my set of priorities.
May be I am suppose to do this as soon as possible. May be this is the only ray of hope for me at the end of this bleak narrow tunnel of utter confusions, uncertainties and unconscious self betrayal.
Or the worst of my fears ...
May be I'm losing it all ...
May be I'm losing it all for something which was never ever meant for me
May be I'm losing it all for a temporary intoxicated euphoria
May be I'm losing it all to hallucinate more
May be I'm losing it all so that I can be in my own utopia
May be I'm losing it all for the undeserved
May be I'm losing it all along with my self
May be it is all frivolously childish of me
May be that's exactly what people call LIFE.
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